Its A Sad Day

Today is a sad day. I just terminated a relationship which is close to my heart. I love my mentor like my own flesh. But it was a good decision. At least that was what I suppose. Whatever I felt deep within, I just snuff it out. Yet, I cannot deny I felt hurt and disappointed.

I am very sad. Its like I lost my heart. The past is so painful. I don't know how to move on. I don't know how to deal with my wounds. I don't know who to go to. As I extend my hands, I get slapped on the wrist. Sometimes I wish life doesn't need to be this bad.

The world doesn't need to feel this lonely. The world doesn't need to be this dark. The world doesn't need to feel like fear is flooding my heart.

I am still trying to get out. The pain and fear is real. Salty tears and silent heart wails.